Being the working mother of a 10-month-old and a teen has put some of my personal career goals on a major hiatus...but I wouldn't trade being a mother for the world.
Still, I struggle to find a way to make more time for my family and also for my personal pursuits. I want to raise my baby girl. I don't want to put her in daycare all day. But finding a job that is flexible and pays well is a challenge. And I love writing. I feel like I have stories to tell, but it is difficult to get into the mindset to write while chasing my baby around (she crawls super fast) and working a full-time job is also exhausting. Hence, my dilemma. I know it is not my burden alone but is shared by many a mother.
Now, this month something seemingly tragic happened. Although, I'm trying to look at this from a positive point of view, thinking of it as a blessing in disguise. See, I know that I often need a little push. (I guess I work better under pressure.) So, I've been pushed to the brink, teetering on the typifying point, looking out at all the paths that lay ahead and wondering where they might lead.
Here I go. Making choices. Hoping that these choices will bring me to the place where I should be.
--JNP
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